Trauma is No Longer my “Teacher”

I’m done with the phrasing of “trauma is my teacher”… while there’s some truth, if used improperly there’s also some spiritual bypassing and spiritually narcissistic narratives in the saying.

At first it really helped to reframe old wounds but eventually it kept me tolerating pain and poor treatment where I never needed to.

It’s an ideology of “I’m in control” and while we do want to empower ourselves- it’s not the whole truth- bc we are often powerless to forces of fate, victims in others’ wars, and mostly of others’ choices.

As Gabor mate says “we are not responsible for our trauma but we are responsible for our healing”

So

Trauma doesn’t teach us, it wounds us, we choose to learn and heal from it or we hide and often continue the cycle.

Let’s untwist the trying to blow people’s minds with new view egoic ideologies and just keep it real. Real is healing.

That said,

Even a teacher doesn’t always teach us,

But we choose to learn.

A healer doesn’t heal, we are willing and show up for the healing.

Of course teachers and healers know things, have ways, skills and magic and wisdom but remember your agency.

Your response-ability.

Mistreatment didn’t show me my worth

It hurt it,

But i certainly chose to see some weren’t worth my worth

And how I shouldn’t have been putting it where I was putting it

I knew my worth, I just needed ppl to stop shaming me for knowing it, calling me egoic, and simultaneously shaming me for staying in situations that harmed it.

I needed to fully own my “ego” and KNOWING without letting others convince me i was viewing it or sending it wrong.

To claim it

To reclaim it

To proclaim it.

So I did. It broke the spell.

What spell are you breaking today?

What spell are you casting?

A curse and a blessing are one in the same, depending on how we choose to use it.

Beliefs are spells.

Stories are spells.

They all help for a time, and then they hinder.

It’s a constant evolution.

So

Do you know your stories?

Do you know you?

The reclamation

Is the spell

The comfirmation

Validation

Affirmation

Or value

The vow in you

To you

For you

So you

Can be you

And bring you

And your unique you

To weave one more bridge and missing link in the intricately woven flower of life

To life

So

Cast the spell

Dispell their shame on you

And reclaim the true

Dispelling is as important as Spelling

Unlearning is as important as learning

Death is as important as life

Destroying is as important as creating

Darkness is as important as light

Duality is as important as non-duality

Darkness can bring us to light

Light can bring us to darkness

We need both

Darkness is not JUST a necessary evil in order to reach light

Darkness is a necessary good in order to reach the magic in the dark

The death, decay, winter, ending, and negativity all bring us medicines.

The life, growth, spring, beginning and positivity all bring us medicines.

They DO need each other but not JUST because of they compliment each other

It’s because they’re good on their own too

Separately together

Human and God

Earth and Sky

Matter and Space

Just like you

Just like us

Just like everything

Just like nothing

Aka love

💕

Neither Light nor Darkness teach us anything

Unless we choose to learn.