mikellepoulsonNov 12, 202350 min read9 years sober a reflection on the love and abuse in AA and spiritual circles.9 years sober a reflection on the love and abuse in AA and spiritual circles. P1 44 years old and 9 years sober and life is still...
mikellepoulsonOct 18, 20234 min readNo one signs up for hurricanes. No one signs up for abuse.When the roof behind you crumbled in a category 4 hurricane but you’re still chill. See pics here https://www.instagram.com/p/CykBjx-RQbE...
mikellepoulsonJul 29, 20232 min readA sacred offering : me and the bumblebeeOne way to begin healing the world: Start seeing everything as sacred. Today I woke up and started my morning routine as per usual....
mikellepoulsonJul 24, 20236 min readVictim is not a bad wordSomeone told me “you created this heartbreak because your ego was running the show and trying to change him” and then added “sorry but...
mikellepoulsonJun 28, 20235 min readObeseObesity - In case you were wondering what it looks like… I’m “it”. I stepped on a ‘special’ scale at the gym yesterday. The “first time...
mikellepoulsonJun 21, 20232 min readStay with the ONEThe deeper, the grief, the deeper the love. I’m not ashamed of my sadness or showing it because I believe and know its truth; the deeper...
mikellepoulsonJun 17, 20236 min readIt ended over coffeeI cry almost every morning over coffee. I spent the last five + years making you coffee nearly every morning Clockwork I would bring it...
mikellepoulsonJun 16, 20232 min readDisapparatingSo many pieces and people and places in my life are disintegrating and falling away Like an oak in the middle of summer losing perfectly...
mikellepoulsonJun 5, 20237 min readWhy focusing on the negative is positiveOne of the most difficult parts about my relationship being ended is grieving the love that WAS there. Yes, there were red flags but...
mikellepoulsonJun 3, 20235 min readA declaration of truth. A reclamation of worth.I spent so long making love to the moon and shadows I forgot about the sun. Happy #fullmoon #sagittarius go to @pulse_on_wholeness for a...
mikellepoulsonMay 27, 20235 min readAnger and its healing salve for heartbreakIf I could tell you how many times I’ve let blood curdling screams evacuate the horror echoing in my bones from this recent trauma and...
mikellepoulsonMay 24, 20233 min readThe healing in the staying and the leavingWhat I started seeing a few years ago was a murky outline of how I was using #toxicpositivity and #gratitude as #spiritualbypassing...
mikellepoulsonMay 8, 20235 min readGenerational healing happens in the malls, on the sidewalks, and in heartfelt listening.My mom reached level 72 today. The day after James dropped the bomb I said “can I just come sleep at your house, I can’t be here anymore...
mikellepoulsonMay 1, 20234 min readLove WinnsIts your birthday today. The night you died I was supposed to hang out with a friend. I messaged her from the hospital where we’d all...
mikellepoulsonMar 23, 20234 min readLove as DeathIt is so sad that we erase each other after a break up. (You might think it “cringe” to post these pictures after a breakup but I...
mikellepoulsonOct 11, 20227 min read8 years of Sobriety; finding infinityNot pictured, me 8 years ago, mostly dead, rotting away in my bed waiting for my drug dealer and/or my doctor (same diff) to call me back...
mikellepoulsonMay 9, 20214 min readThe Other Mother“You’re baby hungry aren’t you“? She said again. “No I’m not, I’m really not“ I answered for the 2nd time. “Do you not want kids?” she...
mikellepoulsonDec 23, 20206 min readYou are the gift. Unwrap yourself.I finally got a tattoo last September after turning 41. My whole life I have been sitting with so many ideas of what to get, where to put...
