
Removing Myself For Him
Removing Myself For Him This reflection, this pic, the space I was in then, the space I’m in now, it’s very difficult to encapsulate any...

Facets and falsehoods of forgiveness
I had the pleasure of feeling and exploring deeply and all month in our meditation group we’ve been intricately examining our...

9 years sober a reflection on the love and abuse in AA and spiritual circles.
9 years sober a reflection on the love and abuse in AA and spiritual circles. P1 44 years old and 9 years sober and life is still...

No one signs up for hurricanes. No one signs up for abuse.
When the roof behind you crumbled in a category 4 hurricane but you’re still chill. See pics here https://www.instagram.com/p/CykBjx-RQbE...

A sacred offering : me and the bumblebee
One way to begin healing the world: Start seeing everything as sacred. Today I woke up and started my morning routine as per usual....

Victim is not a bad word
Someone told me “you created this heartbreak because your ego was running the show and trying to change him” and then added “sorry but...

Obese
Obesity - In case you were wondering what it looks like… I’m “it”. I stepped on a ‘special’ scale at the gym yesterday. The “first time...

Stay with the ONE
The deeper, the grief, the deeper the love. I’m not ashamed of my sadness or showing it because I believe and know its truth; the deeper...

It ended over coffee
I cry almost every morning over coffee. I spent the last five + years making you coffee nearly every morning Clockwork I would bring it...

Disapparating
So many pieces and people and places in my life are disintegrating and falling away Like an oak in the middle of summer losing perfectly...

Why focusing on the negative is positive
One of the most difficult parts about my relationship being ended is grieving the love that WAS there. Yes, there were red flags but...

A declaration of truth. A reclamation of worth.
I spent so long making love to the moon and shadows I forgot about the sun. Happy #fullmoon #sagittarius go to @pulse_on_wholeness for a...

Anger and its healing salve for heartbreak
If I could tell you how many times I’ve let blood curdling screams evacuate the horror echoing in my bones from this recent trauma and...

The healing in the staying and the leaving
What I started seeing a few years ago was a murky outline of how I was using #toxicpositivity and #gratitude as #spiritualbypassing...

Generational healing happens in the malls, on the sidewalks, and in heartfelt listening.
My mom reached level 72 today. The day after James dropped the bomb I said “can I just come sleep at your house, I can’t be here anymore but I don’t really know where to go”. I’ve been here ever since because I still don’t know but I’ve at least landed on the ground of not knowing and being ok with it for now. Letting my nervous system regulate until I have the capacity to decide again has been an interesting practice of patience and humility. When she was "level 45" she wen

Love Winns
Its your birthday today. The night you died I was supposed to hang out with a friend. I messaged her from the hospital where we’d all...

Love as Death
It is so sad that we erase each other after a break up. (You might think it “cringe” to post these pictures after a breakup but I...

8 years of Sobriety; finding infinity
Not pictured, me 8 years ago, mostly dead, rotting away in my bed waiting for my drug dealer and/or my doctor (same diff) to call me back...

The Other Mother
“You’re baby hungry aren’t you“? She said again. “No I’m not, I’m really not“ I answered for the 2nd time. “Do you not want kids?” she...








