mikellepoulsonJun 2, 20243 min readWhy try; connection in alonenessSometimes I wonder why I try to share anything A week in Amsterdam is too much to squeeze into my body/mind let alone a screen. Every...
mikellepoulsonMay 1, 20245 min readIt’s giving, grief, good grief.Winnie “Your absence has gone through me Like thread through a needle. Everything I do is stitched with its color.” - W.S. Merwin...
mikellepoulsonApr 21, 20243 min readTrauma is No Longer my “Teacher”I’m done with the phrasing of “trauma is my teacher”… while there’s some truth, if used improperly there’s also some spiritual bypassing...
mikellepoulsonMar 15, 20244 min readSpeak up: Unshaming and understanding the abuse talksLet’s un shame using the word or talking about “abuse”. Like alcoholism it’s not always what we think it is. *see article below I have...
mikellepoulsonMar 13, 20242 min readGrooming can look likeGrooming can look like: Showing up and being of service in community so that when they mistreat ppl everyone says “oh but they do such...
mikellepoulsonFeb 29, 20243 min readGaslighting ourselves to think their abuse is only OUR inability to receive loveI did this to myself My old sponsor reinforced the same narrative So did a couple old friends So did he I thought just wasn’t ready to...
mikellepoulsonFeb 29, 20241 min readNeglect is AbuseUntil I saw how neglect was the abuse of starvation I was v detached from a huge chunk of my less obvious trauma. Once I could...
mikellepoulsonFeb 17, 20246 min readLearning to trust our read; Is it all a trigger within us to heal or could it actually be “without”If someone would’ve validated this knowing in me, my discernment and intuition, when I was small and my guts knew my step mother and ...
mikellepoulsonFeb 9, 20243 min readAre we hysterical or awake? Maybe it’s hystery not his-story.“When your heart is genuinely shattered, raw, broken, when a deep and ancient sense of shame is suddenly alive in your belly, chest and...
mikellepoulsonJan 29, 20245 min readI am the stormlol 😝 love this “quote” and why I speak truth not just positivity cuz normalize the shit outta this and we just solved 1/2 the world’s...
mikellepoulsonJan 23, 20243 min readKarma is my boyfriend, AND speak tf up too!There’s huge relief in healing trauma. What sucks is how much that becomes the individual focus and the community responsibilities of...
mikellepoulsonJan 22, 20243 min readWelcome to my Kali Ma days“One of the greatest blessings of this work is how it brings feelings back online. For much of my early life I was severely emotionally...
mikellepoulsonJan 20, 20243 min readRandom thoughts: holding more compassion for victims than victimizers even though both are hurt#moray #peru - like was I really just here!? I think I take pics bc I can’t take it all in so I stow it away for later. And again that’s...
mikellepoulsonJan 18, 20244 min readSome people can’t hear about your abuse. Don’t let it be you. Stop being overly accountable 🥺Did you know taking too much responsibility for your trauma can be a disorder/trauma response to cope called Narcissistic Abuse Syndrome...
mikellepoulsonDec 22, 20233 min readThe world needs your darkness: a winter welcomePeople kill themselves trying to stay in the light. Sometimes by getting too much sun, Being too active, Bringing too much light and...
mikellepoulsonDec 20, 202316 min readDear Former Friend, wtf is happening rn?; An apology, an explanation, a story, a truth.I’m glad I got finally hear your version of our story last night in my comment section via accusations. I was guessing at some of the...
mikellepoulsonDec 16, 20238 min readSpiritual Gaslighting Whitewashing SpiritualityThe meme pictured on FB says "please don't let New Age WhiteWashed Spirituality make you believe that everything that upsets you is...
mikellepoulsonDec 6, 20235 min readBlue is darkness made visible. Winnie-blue, that is.‘Blue is darkness made visible.’ Grief is blue So is the sky Winnie blue, to be precise You were with me in St. George It always reminded...
mikellepoulsonDec 1, 20233 min readRemoving Myself For HimRemoving Myself For Him This reflection, this pic, the space I was in then, the space I’m in now, it’s very difficult to encapsulate any...
mikellepoulsonNov 21, 20234 min readFacets and falsehoods of forgivenessI had the pleasure of feeling and exploring deeply and all month in our meditation group we’ve been intricately examining our...
